Wow!!! I’m free, I’m free, I’m free! These are the first thoughts as I reflect on the conference. I want to share about the physical healing but I have to be honest my greatest gift this conference was being healed of the oppression! For 50 years I never knew what it was to be free. Ok I had moments but now I am experiencing true freedom. I came home and my relationship with my husband is closer. We’ve been married over 25 years. The relationship with my kids is closer! It’s such a beautiful gift from God. I carried rejection around from the womb.
To share the physical healing as if God is ever outdone in generosity! I was sick for 4 1/2 years. The Mayo Clinic told my husband in 2018 to bring me home I won’t make it until the end of the year. I spent months in the hospital. I was on life support three times. On July 25, 2019 I was completely healed. Four months later in November 2019 I was in a car accident. Several of the discs in neck and my back are bulging. I met with the neurosurgeon two weeks ago and he wants me on the schedule for two surgeries. My physical therapist comes to my house twice a week. My insurance doesn’t pay for her to come, it’s all out of pocket. We are paying over $800 a month. When Fr. Mathis prayed over me I felt my neck get hot. I knew then that I wasn’t letting go for God to heal me. I was afraid to go down because I have neck and back pain. He told me to go back to the pew and ask God for more. I did that but got back up and walked over to my spiritual director/priest who came with us. After talking with him I went back over to ask Fr. Mathis to pray over me again. There’s a lot of people in line and when he got to me he said I already prayed over you. I felt so rejected. I knew intellectually that he did not reject me. As a parent with several kids I totally get it. However, I allowed myself to only hear rejection. I felt dark. By the grace of God, I got up and walked back over to my spiritual director. He tried speaking truth and praying with me but it was really dark. Fr. Mathis came over to the corner of the church. He stopped and Fr. Fleming was able to explain what happened. He prayed again. I have no idea what he prayed but I went down and I could feel all the discs go back into my neck. For the first time I really felt immersed in God’s love.
My physical therapist came over last week and said that my neck is not bulging out like it had been. She was amazed and wanted to hear what happened. She came over again this week and said that the transformation in my neck is amazing. This has been an amazing opportunity to share Gods love. I will say it’s been almost a month since the conference and I still have no pain in my neck and the rejection wound is completely healed. Let me know if you need anything else. Thanks so much!!!
– Jill Kullman